So, I have a new assignment with laundry which sucks cause I don't want to do it... >:\
Man, D has got his Dommy voice DOWN to a science! DAMN. Whenever he starts getting on to me, I feel like a child that's being repremanded! It's a different feeling from when he's using a Toppy voice which turns me on. The Dommy voice/scolding voice makes me feel TERRIBLE... FAST.
I should just do the damn laundry, I mean fer crying out loud, Megyn! For a little bit D was like "GAH I've given UP!" about the laundry stuff, but apparently he hasn't.
He warned there was gonna be a big number added next time if I didn't do the laundry. I already have over 200 coming at the time being, I need to get my head OUT of my ass, and do the stuff he wants me to!
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Guilty Conscience
So, I was totally late for work today, and I have no idea how I'm supposed to bring it up to D other than to just tattle on myself. I'm not the girl who usually tattles on myself, and when I did it the other night D was totally weirded out lol.
One reason I told on myself the other night was cause I wasn't going to get in trouble for it ANYWAY since I had a free pass, so why not go ahead and get that out of the way.
Part of me really hates "free-passes", it's a boundary that gets elasticized and I don't appreciate leniency as a rule of thumb. The part of my brain that thinks about rules and such rationalizes the fact that if I get a free pass, even if it's just the next one, then it isn't that important of a rule; so what does it matter if I break it or not?
The way I see it, if it's important enough to make a rule about, then the rule should count right away. That's my two cents...
One reason I told on myself the other night was cause I wasn't going to get in trouble for it ANYWAY since I had a free pass, so why not go ahead and get that out of the way.
Part of me really hates "free-passes", it's a boundary that gets elasticized and I don't appreciate leniency as a rule of thumb. The part of my brain that thinks about rules and such rationalizes the fact that if I get a free pass, even if it's just the next one, then it isn't that important of a rule; so what does it matter if I break it or not?
The way I see it, if it's important enough to make a rule about, then the rule should count right away. That's my two cents...
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Lectures
So, it's been a little bit since I've blogged, so I thought I would hop right in with some more ramblings from teh Megyn!
This is a subject I've had rolling around in my head here lately since there have been discussions going along in fetlife about lectures/being scolded.
Personally, it takes absolutely nothing to make me feel guilty. I fall for guilt trips all the time, and I know I do this, although just that knowledge alone helps nothing. So, at first whoever is scolding me makes me feel terrible for whatever it was that I did.
But like I stated... "at first"
This is a subject I've had rolling around in my head here lately since there have been discussions going along in fetlife about lectures/being scolded.
Personally, it takes absolutely nothing to make me feel guilty. I fall for guilt trips all the time, and I know I do this, although just that knowledge alone helps nothing. So, at first whoever is scolding me makes me feel terrible for whatever it was that I did.
But like I stated... "at first"
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Meh :\
So, I got to talk to D again tonight which was nice!
Turns out his boss totally fucked him over in his evaluation today and he was PISSED. Hell, I was pissed for him! He pulls a bunch of shit-shifts and comes in when asked/not scheduled to help THEM out, and they shit on him.
Motherfucking cunts.
I went to work out before work and cooked a chicken dish at work. My day wasn't too eventful except the fact that I ended up leaving late cause I started the last round of the recipe later than I anticipated.
One thing I didn't do, that I was supposed to do, was my laundry. I dislike doing laundry with the burning flame of hatred. I would rather clean the bathroom from top to bottom than do laundry. I really hate that D had taken it upon himself to help me out with my responsibilities cause I keep just getting in trouble for the same shit over and over. >:\
Ugh, the smart thing to do would be just DO the frigging crap, but do I? Of course not, that would be too easy.
Turns out his boss totally fucked him over in his evaluation today and he was PISSED. Hell, I was pissed for him! He pulls a bunch of shit-shifts and comes in when asked/not scheduled to help THEM out, and they shit on him.
Motherfucking cunts.
I went to work out before work and cooked a chicken dish at work. My day wasn't too eventful except the fact that I ended up leaving late cause I started the last round of the recipe later than I anticipated.
One thing I didn't do, that I was supposed to do, was my laundry. I dislike doing laundry with the burning flame of hatred. I would rather clean the bathroom from top to bottom than do laundry. I really hate that D had taken it upon himself to help me out with my responsibilities cause I keep just getting in trouble for the same shit over and over. >:\
Ugh, the smart thing to do would be just DO the frigging crap, but do I? Of course not, that would be too easy.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Work and Operas
So, who woke up with the burning desire to call out of work?
a) My dog
b) Me
c) My snake
d) Peanut butter
If you answered ANYTHING but B you are ridiculous lol. Except I'm sure it is difficult for PB to get up every morning and sit in the cupboard waiting to be nommed.
Anywho, I was so close to calling out, I even had the phone in my lap staring at me. Waiting to be opened and dialed, begging nearly! My bed was sitting there all lonely and empty, all I had to do was give a short little insignificant pone call and my bed wouldn't have to be alone anymore! I could fall back into slumber and not have to worry about the recipes or customers and I would be well-rested come Monday when I go back into work!
I looked at my bed with lust, but a small nagging voice in the back of my head kept saying... "Aren't you already in enough trouble!?" "How are you going to explain this to D?" and the ever-ready "You'll get in trouble at work too!" Therefore my ass was at the store from 10am to 7pm just like I was scheduled thank you very much.
Who says I don't listen. :P
On another hand, I've been totally stuck in listening to/watching the movie Repo! The Genetic Opera. I just love the darkness and gore of the opera, I'm a sucker for musicals/operas.
a) My dog
b) Me
c) My snake
d) Peanut butter
If you answered ANYTHING but B you are ridiculous lol. Except I'm sure it is difficult for PB to get up every morning and sit in the cupboard waiting to be nommed.
Anywho, I was so close to calling out, I even had the phone in my lap staring at me. Waiting to be opened and dialed, begging nearly! My bed was sitting there all lonely and empty, all I had to do was give a short little insignificant pone call and my bed wouldn't have to be alone anymore! I could fall back into slumber and not have to worry about the recipes or customers and I would be well-rested come Monday when I go back into work!
I looked at my bed with lust, but a small nagging voice in the back of my head kept saying... "Aren't you already in enough trouble!?" "How are you going to explain this to D?" and the ever-ready "You'll get in trouble at work too!" Therefore my ass was at the store from 10am to 7pm just like I was scheduled thank you very much.
Who says I don't listen. :P
On another hand, I've been totally stuck in listening to/watching the movie Repo! The Genetic Opera. I just love the darkness and gore of the opera, I'm a sucker for musicals/operas.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Uneventful
So today was a pretty uneventful day, I got up around noon cause my legs were KILLING ME TO DEATH and I went and had chinese food. After that I headed on to work and proceeded to work from 3-8. I ended up having a convo about religion with one of my coworkers who is really cool, and I got to learn a little more about different denominations for Churches. Unlike other conversations about religion, I welcomed this one 'cause he isn't the type of dude to shove the crap down your throat.
Anywho, after I left work I went to the YMCA to work out. That was a lot of fun, I haven't worked out in ages and it was nice to get back into the rhythm of the eliptical again. I was only able to stay for half an hour, but I think I'm setting my goal to be 2 hours minimum each week at the gym.
I bought this brown-flowery-hippy-lookin dress that I want to get into, therefore I have a goal, and I am DOING it thank-yew-vurry-much. I'm 3x now and the dress is large, so it's not a HUGE goal, but a goal nonetheless.
Anywho, after I left work I went to the YMCA to work out. That was a lot of fun, I haven't worked out in ages and it was nice to get back into the rhythm of the eliptical again. I was only able to stay for half an hour, but I think I'm setting my goal to be 2 hours minimum each week at the gym.
I bought this brown-flowery-hippy-lookin dress that I want to get into, therefore I have a goal, and I am DOING it thank-yew-vurry-much. I'm 3x now and the dress is large, so it's not a HUGE goal, but a goal nonetheless.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Strange Meetings
So, I'm trying to waste some time before I call D back so I thought... "Hey, why don't I blog!?" And here we are.
Anywho, so today was an interesting day, to say the least. I got up this morning and got ready to go to a bird show at the state fair grounds. It was really interesting, and as much as I didn't think I was going to like it, I did! I got to hold a few birds and I played with these 3 birds for about an hour I'd say.
I wanted to steal the white one, omg.
But anywho, we chilled around there for a few hours and decided it was time to go, so we went to the snake place (the place I bought Mofo from) and I got her a new house, and some rats. After we left there we went to the grocery store and THAT is where things got interesting...
My brother was really exhausted and was nearly falling asleep in the snake shop so when we got to the grocery store he and I split off from Jo and my Dad to go sit at the tables. Well, we were sitting right where bottled drinks were, therefore I wanted one and asked my bro if he wanted one too. He did, so we picked the flavours we wanted and went to go pay for them.
While I was in line a man came up and asked, "Are you Megyn?"
Anywho, so today was an interesting day, to say the least. I got up this morning and got ready to go to a bird show at the state fair grounds. It was really interesting, and as much as I didn't think I was going to like it, I did! I got to hold a few birds and I played with these 3 birds for about an hour I'd say.
I wanted to steal the white one, omg.
But anywho, we chilled around there for a few hours and decided it was time to go, so we went to the snake place (the place I bought Mofo from) and I got her a new house, and some rats. After we left there we went to the grocery store and THAT is where things got interesting...
My brother was really exhausted and was nearly falling asleep in the snake shop so when we got to the grocery store he and I split off from Jo and my Dad to go sit at the tables. Well, we were sitting right where bottled drinks were, therefore I wanted one and asked my bro if he wanted one too. He did, so we picked the flavours we wanted and went to go pay for them.
While I was in line a man came up and asked, "Are you Megyn?"
Friday, April 8, 2011
Pathetic
Do you know who's pathetic? Me.
I had all week to do, not two, not three... but ONE load of laundry and did I do it? No, no I didn't. Am I going to do it now that I'm thinking about it? Probably not. You know why? Because I'm lazy.
On another note, turns out D is out actually having a life, so he's not home and therefore I am sitting staring at my computer wanting to be asleep. I assume I have to go to bed at midnight since I have to get up for work tomorrow, meh.
Meh. Meh. Meh.
I'm trying to waste 40 minutes so I can join my dad in his radio show at ghettoradio.us . It's always a fun time doing the radio show with him. Hmmm... Since I'm trying to waste time ANYWAYS I should probably go ahead and do some laundry... sounds like a plan huh?
Sounds like a shitty plan.
Who's in a blabby mood right now? That would be meeee!!! :D All talkative with no one to talk to except my blog, so blog I do!! YAY
We had Korean food tonight, it was very scrumptious. I enjoyed it immensely.
I had all week to do, not two, not three... but ONE load of laundry and did I do it? No, no I didn't. Am I going to do it now that I'm thinking about it? Probably not. You know why? Because I'm lazy.
On another note, turns out D is out actually having a life, so he's not home and therefore I am sitting staring at my computer wanting to be asleep. I assume I have to go to bed at midnight since I have to get up for work tomorrow, meh.
Meh. Meh. Meh.
I'm trying to waste 40 minutes so I can join my dad in his radio show at ghettoradio.us . It's always a fun time doing the radio show with him. Hmmm... Since I'm trying to waste time ANYWAYS I should probably go ahead and do some laundry... sounds like a plan huh?
Sounds like a shitty plan.
Who's in a blabby mood right now? That would be meeee!!! :D All talkative with no one to talk to except my blog, so blog I do!! YAY
We had Korean food tonight, it was very scrumptious. I enjoyed it immensely.
Worst Night EVAR!
So last night I slept like shit.
For one, I was told to go to bed at 11 since I had to wake up at 6 to get to work on time. Well, I didn't want to go, but after a little bit of whining I laid down.
Time ticked by...
I tossed and turned, trying to find a position that would lull me into slumber, but it didn't come.
After laying there around 45 minutes I decided I was going nowhere fast in my journey to sleep-hood, so I turned the light on and drew a little bit. After I finished I felt the first urge of tiredness and I quickly turned my lights off to sleep.
Right side. Back. Left side. Opposite side of bed. Right side. Arm under pillow. Pillows stacked. No pillow. Laying on giant panda. Laying on arm.
For one, I was told to go to bed at 11 since I had to wake up at 6 to get to work on time. Well, I didn't want to go, but after a little bit of whining I laid down.
Time ticked by...
I tossed and turned, trying to find a position that would lull me into slumber, but it didn't come.
After laying there around 45 minutes I decided I was going nowhere fast in my journey to sleep-hood, so I turned the light on and drew a little bit. After I finished I felt the first urge of tiredness and I quickly turned my lights off to sleep.
Right side. Back. Left side. Opposite side of bed. Right side. Arm under pillow. Pillows stacked. No pillow. Laying on giant panda. Laying on arm.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Time to Blog! :D
So this is probably a BAD idea to blog after 1am of a pretty emotional night. My Dad and I talked for a few hours tonight and I crriiieedddddd and his eyes leaked a little... Twas emotional.
Anywho, so that being said... I get pretty wordy and unorganized (yes, more than usual) when I'm under the influence of tired, so just bare with me.
So I was perving around on fetlife today and saw, under a group that I'm in, a thread about having to cut your own switch. Now, this is something that I've thought of on occasion, but never really thought that it would be a possibility so I would quickly dismiss it and go onto other fantasies. Though... now that there's D in the picture... it could become a possibility at some point and as much as I dread the day, I can't help but get all hot from the mere THOUGHT of it.
Anywho, so that being said... I get pretty wordy and unorganized (yes, more than usual) when I'm under the influence of tired, so just bare with me.
So I was perving around on fetlife today and saw, under a group that I'm in, a thread about having to cut your own switch. Now, this is something that I've thought of on occasion, but never really thought that it would be a possibility so I would quickly dismiss it and go onto other fantasies. Though... now that there's D in the picture... it could become a possibility at some point and as much as I dread the day, I can't help but get all hot from the mere THOUGHT of it.
Friday, April 1, 2011
Spanking Implements
So I was perving around today online in between laundry loads and found a website with leather spanking implements in it. Now... I know that these websites are easy to come by, but this one was interesting since the part I clicked on singled in on implements used for DD(Domestic Discipline).
I'll put the website at the end of this blog for those who may be interested in viewing. The website is based in London I presume (Since it's called 'London Tanners') so the money increments are in pounds instead of dollars. I like looking at implements to get ideas for other implements I pick up later, or plan to make.
Man... just going through the different series makes my butt throb.
You know the sad thing is that for the time being, only D, one of my friends, and I read this blog so the whole point of me adding in a website with implements would be to show D... Am I a glutton for punishment? I believe the answer is yes.
Yes. I. Am.
I'll put the website at the end of this blog for those who may be interested in viewing. The website is based in London I presume (Since it's called 'London Tanners') so the money increments are in pounds instead of dollars. I like looking at implements to get ideas for other implements I pick up later, or plan to make.
Man... just going through the different series makes my butt throb.
You know the sad thing is that for the time being, only D, one of my friends, and I read this blog so the whole point of me adding in a website with implements would be to show D... Am I a glutton for punishment? I believe the answer is yes.
Yes. I. Am.
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