Contemplative

So D and I just had a pretty interesting conversation, and while I'm not a fan of airing out dirty laundry to society at large, I'm going to just let my thoughts conjure into sentences on this certain blog. Feel free to disregard and ignore if you must.

Thank you.

Soo, anyways... back to the conversation.

Things were fine, just like normal convo. I was telling him about Hustler and their assortment of leather implements and the like, which turned into a convo about if we would ever be able to spend more than one friggin night together. Then it took a surprising turn when D started talking about how the relationship is probably not going to work out in the long run.

While this may be true, I mean... anything could be true under the right circumstances, and I can see where he's coming from with us being so far apart, I still don't agree. I mean obviously if both parties aren't trying to make it work, it won't; but I don't think the distance thing should weigh in that much. It seems to really bother D, and while it DOES bother me a lot, I think it may bother him more? I don't know, I'm not in his head.

Waking up

This morning I have been engrossed in thinking about the conversation D and I shared last night before I was so unceremoniously sent to bed. :p

Dude, last night I felt like a little girl half the time. I mean, not in a bad way... it was interesting, to say the least.

I swear, just as I start to figure D out, he pulls another punch, and I love it all over again.

GAWWWW I have to friggin cut down FOUR stupid bamboo things!

~MIFF~

AANNNDDD he told me that I'd "better not forget them" cause the hiding I'd get from them wouldn't be shit for what I'd get if I didn't bring them. AAANNNDDDD he used "do as you're told" which makes me melt at the same time that it makes me want to buck against it with a fervor.

Long Time No See ;)

Wow, so tonight I was able to talk to D again. It was fantastic.

He was out of town for about 4 days, then it took another 2 days for me to finally catch him awake/at home. Sure, only 6 days, but when you're used to talking to someone every day, anything more than a day or so seems like forever.

Anyways. I called him last night, and also got to talk to him tonight, and it reminded me just how much I sincerely enjoy talking to him. I have a short term memory, don't judge lol.

Anywho, so we got to talk and it was amazing. Wull... other than the fact that I found out just how in trouble I am already. I had forgotten about 2 things I did (went negative in bank account and lost meds) so I didn't think I was in all that much trouble.

I told him yesterday about a couple times I was late to work. He's big about that kind of stuff. One day I was apparently 3 hours late, but I don't remember it. I think it was one day that I didn't know I worked? I almost remember already being at dinner when I got the frantic call that I as supposed to work, but I really don't remember when it was that I was a whole 3 hours late.

I. Am. Inviencible.

I totally got through yet another HUGE beating!

I ended up bleeding, and D is a really awesome person, and decided to cut the punishment short. He didn't stop right away, and I ended up getting another 50 or so, but was still a LOT better than I had coming to me.

There was a comfy chair in the room, kinda an arm chair, that I had to bend over to part of my punishments. Wow... had I not been totally focused on the absolute AGONY I was going to be feeling, I would have thought it to be TOTALLY hot. I've always wanted to bend over something that was not easy to escape from and propped my ass up high. It was both, and I think that D is going to use a chair like that in any situation he can.

Wull, after the punishment part passed, we were just chillin together, and DAMN son, I was in some sort of mood.

Insomnia + working early + wasting time

So, I was going to be getting up here in about 45 minutes, but since I slept like a beast yesterday I was unable to fall into slumber tonight.

Could this have anything to do with my taking myself off my anxiety medicine? Nahhhh.

But yeah, so I orgasmed about 10 times probably in an hour's time and I couldn't sleep afterwards. I tried for like an hour and it just WASN'T HAPPENING.

It's weird though, I'll be going into work today for a pretty long shift, without any sleep. I used to do this last summer, way before I became involved with D. He won't be all that pleased when I let him in on the little tidbit of info, but what else can he do right now? Threaten to spank me more? I'm pretty sure I maxed out that little number.

I guess he could make me kneel in the corner more, which granted would SUCK monkey balls, isn't much of a deterrent.

Weird mood

So, for some reason I have woken up this fine day in the weirdest mood ever. I feel kind of bad because my boss called earlier about me coming in to work since someone didn't make it, and I was sleeping at the time and totally missed it.

Scratch that, I don't feel "kinda bad" I feel horrible. Here I am trying to impress my bosses and shit, and then I don't even answer the phone call. Ugh... fuck a duck.

One of my old coworkers wants me to babysit her boyfriend's little girl while he takes her out for her birthday. Apparently the little girl (5) really likes anime and stuff, so atleast I'll be able to keep her occupied if I draw something for her.

Atleast I'll get paid, right?

All this time I've been excited about D coming to town and have been happily avoiding the fact that I am going to get the worse beating I've EVER gotten. On the contrary, here lately that's been what I've totally zoned in on. It's bad enough it's going to happen, let alone the fact that I have to wait for it. *miff*

Decorating and Excitement

So, this past Saturday I got to decorate cakes!!! It was SO friggin much fun, dude. I was there from 5-2:30 and the time just FLEW by, man. FLEW. I can't wait until I am over there all the time and I get to do the stuff every day I work. I am friggin pumped.
I know that eventually I am going to get tired of it, and will start asking for another job at work, simply because I am not kept entertained for very long usually; but I will enjoy it while I can, and will enjoy it thoroughly.

Overall things are going very well for me. I mean, now I have an awesome boyfriend that I actually really like, I am finally getting the job I really want, and I am finally getting friends and hanging out with people.

I am totally pumped about D coming into town. Just 11 more days!!! WOOT.

Sure, he's only going to murder me once we escape the family and get back to the hotel, but I'm still excited!!! ^_^