I. Am. Inviencible.

I totally got through yet another HUGE beating!

I ended up bleeding, and D is a really awesome person, and decided to cut the punishment short. He didn't stop right away, and I ended up getting another 50 or so, but was still a LOT better than I had coming to me.

There was a comfy chair in the room, kinda an arm chair, that I had to bend over to part of my punishments. Wow... had I not been totally focused on the absolute AGONY I was going to be feeling, I would have thought it to be TOTALLY hot. I've always wanted to bend over something that was not easy to escape from and propped my ass up high. It was both, and I think that D is going to use a chair like that in any situation he can.

Wull, after the punishment part passed, we were just chillin together, and DAMN son, I was in some sort of mood.

Insomnia + working early + wasting time

So, I was going to be getting up here in about 45 minutes, but since I slept like a beast yesterday I was unable to fall into slumber tonight.

Could this have anything to do with my taking myself off my anxiety medicine? Nahhhh.

But yeah, so I orgasmed about 10 times probably in an hour's time and I couldn't sleep afterwards. I tried for like an hour and it just WASN'T HAPPENING.

It's weird though, I'll be going into work today for a pretty long shift, without any sleep. I used to do this last summer, way before I became involved with D. He won't be all that pleased when I let him in on the little tidbit of info, but what else can he do right now? Threaten to spank me more? I'm pretty sure I maxed out that little number.

I guess he could make me kneel in the corner more, which granted would SUCK monkey balls, isn't much of a deterrent.

Weird mood

So, for some reason I have woken up this fine day in the weirdest mood ever. I feel kind of bad because my boss called earlier about me coming in to work since someone didn't make it, and I was sleeping at the time and totally missed it.

Scratch that, I don't feel "kinda bad" I feel horrible. Here I am trying to impress my bosses and shit, and then I don't even answer the phone call. Ugh... fuck a duck.

One of my old coworkers wants me to babysit her boyfriend's little girl while he takes her out for her birthday. Apparently the little girl (5) really likes anime and stuff, so atleast I'll be able to keep her occupied if I draw something for her.

Atleast I'll get paid, right?

All this time I've been excited about D coming to town and have been happily avoiding the fact that I am going to get the worse beating I've EVER gotten. On the contrary, here lately that's been what I've totally zoned in on. It's bad enough it's going to happen, let alone the fact that I have to wait for it. *miff*

Decorating and Excitement

So, this past Saturday I got to decorate cakes!!! It was SO friggin much fun, dude. I was there from 5-2:30 and the time just FLEW by, man. FLEW. I can't wait until I am over there all the time and I get to do the stuff every day I work. I am friggin pumped.
I know that eventually I am going to get tired of it, and will start asking for another job at work, simply because I am not kept entertained for very long usually; but I will enjoy it while I can, and will enjoy it thoroughly.

Overall things are going very well for me. I mean, now I have an awesome boyfriend that I actually really like, I am finally getting the job I really want, and I am finally getting friends and hanging out with people.

I am totally pumped about D coming into town. Just 11 more days!!! WOOT.

Sure, he's only going to murder me once we escape the family and get back to the hotel, but I'm still excited!!! ^_^

Fucked Up

So, I knew when I had D read my last post, that I was going to be in mountains of shit, but I don't really think I thought it out all the way.

Because... dude... I'm way up shit creek.

He isn't even giving it a number, he's just gonna spank me until he gets tired. I am so not looking forward to our little "talk", even though I can't wait til he gets here. Ugh.

I felt really bad about it when he first found out, because he was like "Are you trying to prove something?" I felt soooo bad and I've been thinking about that question a lot.

No, I'm really not trying to prove something to him, it's just I have a cycle of obediance. It is nearly impossible for me to think something stays the same ALL the time. Sure, I'll know something happens THIS time, but who's to say it'll happen a month from now? And even as consistant that D is, I still haven't gotten it quite through my thick skull that rules are RULES and will remain rules until agreed as otherwise.

Soooooo....

So, lately I've been having problems with the whole not texting while driving thing. I mean, I'm not texting EVERY time I drive, but I've probably sent over 10 texts while in the driver's seat of my car. I'm not really quite sure exactly how to tell D, cause I DON'T want to get in trouble because of it, even though I know it's a rule... and a big one at that.

I'm pretty much just screwed.

I was doing SO WELL! I only have like... a hundred or so, so far, and here I am fucking the whole sha-bang up. I have to tell him somehow, but I really... REALLY don't want to.

WHEW

Wow, I totally missed blogging the week I was in Florida! Woww... Was my trip informative!!

I was going down to Florida to visit with an online friend I've had for about 2 years, and already met once. I spent 5 days at her house.

You all know the phrase, "The best way to lose a friend is to move in with them"?

Well, I found out why that phrase is so accurate. Kay and I are still friends, close ones in fact, but we both have realized that we could NEVER live in the same household. We both have strong personalities and like winning arguments; and to each other refuse to be the passive one to calm the tension.

Don't get me wrong, I still love her to death, but I about killed her while there lol.